Happy New Year!

Yes it is.
And I am here.

Amid people and noise,

music and beer.

And food,for thought.

More than my fill,

More than my choice.

As the count winds down

Alls hushed now,murmurs only.

and then the cheers spread, 

like a wildfire through the town.

For everyone its 
a second chance.

I walk away ,
look around

 and ask in random

for just one dance.

Its loud and mad again

and I cant hear.

Nothing at all.Not a clue,

of what's the moron

 screaming into my ear.

And you are 

heaven knows where!

Like the ripped out page
 from my diary.

and its funny I should 
think of you now.

No.Not Funny. How dare?

Its all wrong.You.

 I left behind.

You cant be not here,
and still be, 

on my mind.

The music is soft now,

and the voice is saying,

all I catch although is,

"honey,we should get going."

I step back and peer.

Just like that

the tears run amok.

Those eyes .That voice.

Boy! Am I in some shock?

You know me, maybe,

better than I do.

You know I cant 

and haven't been me,

 without you.

Somethings dont change.

Not at all,

Not through the years,

the vaccum inside,

the heartbreak,

and the silly fight.

I am glad that

you came, 

after all.

Happy New Year.

To keep the flame burning

Yes.

I say.

I am in love with you.

Should you ask,

why? 

Reason,

I could give you a few.

But what I don't tell is 

for you to read.

And I won't ask back.

Your lips can lie all

they want, 

for your eyes,

is all I shall ever need.

I know you now.Now I don't.

Its this tickle 

without the touch,

that I fell for.

I confess.

And its alright if you wont.

Its a long way to

 what we can be,

someday.

I want to be there 

to hear, see and feel.

Walk to the end of the world

with you,and be there,

All the way.

If you still are

in some bits of doubt,

Let go.Let it be.

Don't figure me like math.

I am best left unsolved,

with mysteries to me

Isn't that's what Love's all about?

I watched the sun rise....

Like the wick in a candle.

Burning all night.

Steadily.

Fading away into the wee hours.

Wasting away.

Slowly.

Theres is,but,

nothing to show,

The still warm to touch

wax on the stand.

Traces of the drip

on the brass handle 

of the drawer, in teak,

below.

Bygone of a light

that had once been.

A glory that the flame

had once seen.

Of hope that it held in 

its wake, in those

hazel eyes.

Stillness.All around.

A quilt that silenced

strains of a shatter.

And therein lay, 

destroyed,

a web of lies.

The streaming rays 

on the porch.

Tip of the nose,

Shining bright.

Contouring unsightly

circles under the eyes.

Dark.They dispel.

Some of it 

from the previous night.

Glad its a new day.

Heaven hold the

door ,wide open.

And,

wish it all away.

I am lit up.All inside.

Deep.

Free to believe

and lose again.

And they wont be back

to haunt.

Till I sleep.

Until I sleep.

A walk down the aisle

I am here

with all my heart.

Every inch of me

knew,forever.

It was ordained

we be together.

That you clasp

my hands, and,

ask me to be yours

till death do us apart.
Here I am, I am here,

with all my heart.

The tear veiled eyes,

peer into yours.

They never fail

to remind.

And, they whisper-.

Gentle,the words,

as they fall,

like a feather.

But the mind has

heard a million times.

The scene played

over and again

each part.

Here I am, I am here,

with all my heart.

Only,

Those eyes arent me.

Those palms, sweaty ,

with nervous desire

arent mine.

The ears listening

to sweet nothings.

None of it.Not a bit

You are no longer,beside.

You whisked your love away.

I remain a cast aside.

I should have seen it coming,

if only ,I was any smart.

And, I only stood there,

shocked still,but,

With all my heart.

The heart bid bye

The dimples

darken in the cheeks.

Funny,you should call it

'smile line'.

A life,loved and lost.

A loss so beloved.

A love so sublime.

You have long since taken leave.

And, I let my unmoored soul depart.

If only you had looked.

Deep enough .Just once.

You would've known,

There I was.Always.

And,

with all my heart.